Being Different is Okay and it’s fun!

November 10, 2013 by Selah Vita 14 Comments

…i’ve been noticing more and more how different i am from so many…lol although i find it to be amusing, sometimes it seems to trouble others. don’t know why it should, but it’s obvious it does.
you see, i love being alone in my own little world, i find it fascinating at times because i’m a thinker and i have a wild imagination too! although i am a friend to many and go out of my way to make someone feel comfortable, it’s not often i will open up, i just prefer to be a help/encourager to others. but lately i’ve been tip toeing out of this private world of mine, and the truth is, i’m recognizing there will always be someone who prefers me to go back in the box and not speak a word unless it agrees with them. ha! seems now that i’m growing and becoming who i was created to be, that’s where the trouble lies. those who have known me are uncomfy with my new self. i was always the extremely quiet one who smiled and never gave my opinion of anything unless asked…i loved to just listen to everyone’s chatter about the silly things that seem to bother them.
now that time has been passing by, i took notice that i do have lots to say, but i choose to speak only when i find it profitable.
through the years i have figured out although people have said, “you’re too quiet, you’re very shy, you’re such an introvert, you’re really a funny person, why don’t you open up more, and lastly, why do you let others push you around, you need to stand up for yourself ?” all these things and more seemed to annoy others, but now as i’ve opened up (at my leisure) they seem to prefer i go back into my shell and speak only when spoken to! what they haven’t figured out is that now when i stand up for myself, it’s only ok with them, as long as i’m not standing up to them! whoaaaaaa!!! hmmmm, amazing isn’t it? yeah, always the double standard…
well, i’m really not here to complain, i’m more amused and wanted to see if anyone deals with similar stuff.
i’m allowing myself to grow and i like it…yes, i still prefer my quiet self, but there are times this italian, jersey girl seems to pop up and i must say, it amuses me. though some may be uncomfortable when i stand tall (well, tall for my 5ft stature lol), i find as long as i’m not obnoxious or hurtful, it’s making me see there is life after hiding in my own world, and i’m enjoying the trip down this new found freedom lane…after all there is life ahead of us if we’re willing to step out into the unknown we can look fear in the face and be set free.
btw, i want to thank you all for being such great blogging buddies, i think you’ve had something to do with this “coming out” party! (and just a warning, i will be sure ti refer my friends and family to you all if i see a mob coming my way the next time i have my fun with them! lol )
and again, a big thanks for showing me there’s life in blogging… 😉